The last two weeks have been so wonderful. I feel like Oliver has grown so much just in the last 2 weeks. A friend from my Mothers Group, K, told me that it was amazing how much they grow and learn between 4 and 6 months, and it is like they learn something new every day. Well I think she is right :O) Every day seems to be something new with Oliver. Last week he started turning from his belly to his back. He had already turned from his back to his belly but hadn't done it again in some time. So when he started turning from his belly to his back like it was nothing at all I was completely shocked. He did it three times in front of me and his Nonna, so I thought I was going to get it on video and of course he wouldn't do it for me. The that night his Granny and Grampa came over and he did it 2 more times in front of them, but the next day he would not do it for Craig. He is such a tease.
This week he started turning from his back to his belly again. One morning I was sending a text to a friend and I heard him grunting and groaning and looked up to find him on his belly. He has rolled every day since then, and of course I keep trying to get it on video but he will not do it for me. So today I finally caught him rolling over on video, but when I went to look at the recording it was only to find that I had not pressed the record button. Boo, silly me.
Last week after seeing Oliver's cousin J in the big bath I thought it would be cool to try Oliver out in it. We fill the bath just enough so he can lie down without the water covering his face and he splashes and laughs and even today started to squeal. He has the time of his life. Needless to say we do no need the baby bath anymore, well not until the next baby anyway.
Also this week Oliver has started to reach for his feet and has actually grabbed hold of them a couple of times. I give credit of this achievement to my Dad, as he is always making him hold onto his feet. I can't wait for the foot in his mouth stage, it is so cute.
On a sadder note...
When I was trying to conceive and also when pregnant with Oliver I used to go on the forums called What to Expect. I have made some really wonderful friends on there who I keep in contact with on a regular basis. They are all overseas except for a couple who have moved from overseas to Australia, but I just love catching up with them, especially as most of them have babies now as well.
Unfortunately 2 days ago I heard of one of the girls from my "Due in November" board has lost her baby to SIDS. I am so sad for her and do not know where to begin in understanding how she is feeling and how she will ever get through this hurt and sorrow she is feeling. How can a perfectly happy and healthy baby just die in his sleep? It is the most dreadful thing that could happen to anyone. She has an enormous amount of support from all the girls she has met on the forums, but at the same time I wonder how she feels with all these women around her with their babies. I am so sorry for her and wish there was a way to take away all the pain she is feeling.
So of course now I am on high alert with Oliver. I am lucky enough to have the angel care monitor which monitors his breathing and will alert me if he stops breathing for 15 seconds. I dread that the alarm will go off, what if he does stop breathing and I can't kick start him back to life. I know I shouldn't be thinking things like this but my life revolves around him now. I don't know how I would ever deal with losing him and I hope and pray to God that this will not happen to me. I say to God "I know this is selfish, but please do not ever take Oliver away from me, I do not have the strength to deal with that sort of loss and will not be able to handle it. Please take me first". I love Oliver so much, no amount of words will ever be able to describe it.
I had a bacio chocolate the other day, and inside the message that comes with it said "If you were to give me all the kisses in the world, it would still be too few". I thought how it should be the other way, especially when I think of it in relation to Oliver, it should say "If I were to give you all the kisses in the world, it would still be too few".
And so every day I give him as many kisses as I like because even then I still can't show him how much he means to me.
